It doesn't appear to me so much as flight as the attachment difficulty which the children of immigrants often experience. I think you're fine, and I think you can feel that it would be possible to feel that you are fine, if only people would stop telling you things that make you feel you're not. Don't go to EIP: you'll get a fine summer job in the course of the year. Leave others to go to humiliation ceremonies that wouldn't be good for you. Think about what you'd like to be part of making happen in society using words. Write a very little bit about that.