Thank you for your thoughts fellows. And I apologise for the misuse of words, I will be more careful in the future. I agree with you saying that I created myself my own representations of the world. Stringent insitutions, sometimes corrupt officials, and only economic stakes which prevail. Not to mention the incredible weight of what we call here ‘lobbies’. A noun that does not even exist in my country, but a concept that is however present in every mind. I am a product of this system. I am a slave of this system. What came to my mind reading you was Alain’s thought. ‘Saying no’. and the example of Alexander the Great, who, in the middle of nowhere, leading his starving troops, refused to drink the small amount of water brought to him in solidarity with his soldiers. The power of’ negation’. Being free, being yourself. And being ready.

But before’ changing the world’, I need to change some personal features. Modeling an armour, that would help me survive . Sharpening my intellectual tools, and using them as my finest foil. This is what I meant by ‘growing up’. What could one do, at 21? Many things, I agree, but still, I feel powerless, and in need of model figures, or as refering to Uchechi’s semantic field, ‘mentors’, or simply put, ‘’Others’’. I have some. Michel Aflaq, Gandhi, King, of course, and to some extent members of my family. Others, to learn from them. Others, to build and fight together. Others, to escape the mental prison I am slightly being idle in, nurished by this Ivy fruit I decided to indulge in. You are right. I might need help in my journey. I can’t pretend I am MacGyver? anymore. But are my prospects similar to yours? Is my battle yours? Let’s share our thoughts. In real life.

-- KamelB - 28 Jan 2009