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The sky is falling (or is it?) | |
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< | Every day, more and more law firms are conducting layoffs or experiencing a profits decline. (http://amlawdaily.typepad.com/amlawdaily/2009/02/official-latham-to-cut-190-associates-250-staff-.html) Firms are “freezing” salaries and reducing end of the year bonuses. The law firm business model, as it stands, is apparently unsustainable. The whole situation feels absolutely terrifying to me. I have always considered law to be one of the most stable professions in the world. The system that has been in place for so many years suddenly appears no longer workable. I do not want to sound alarmist so maybe “workable” is not the right term. However, the entire situation is certainly disconcerting. For me, it feels a little like our recent class discussion when we talked about how making a deal works best when it is good and rational. Two years ago, I would have said that it made complete sense to take out loans in order to attend law school. The benefits would surely outweigh the costs in the long run. But now, the law profession’s trademark stability is being called into question. I definitely do not think that I have been swindled or conned. But in this economic climate, I find myself questioning the rationality of the deal that I made. Why am I here? And is it going to be worth it in the end? I think it is important to constantly probe one’s decisions in order to make sure one is on the right path. Using my own experiences, the purpose of this essay is to explore how one avoids becomes someone that they do not want to be. In this essay, I will discuss my motivation for deciding to become a lawyer and how my increasing knowledge of what a lawyer actually does has affected it. | >
> | Every day, more and more law firms are conducting layoffs or experiencing a profits decline. Firms are “freezing” salaries and reducing year-end bonuses. Reportedly, a third of the CLS 3L class either have deferred or rescinded job offers. Two weekends ago, I attended a panel that featured law firm partners and they asserted that we are in a time period of great uncertainty. They all confessed that no one seems to understand what is occurring in the economy and what the potential ramifications for the legal industry are. According to them, this present situation is nothing like any one has ever seen before. I thought to myself, “If they don’t know what’s going on, how am I supposed to figure it out?” One of the panelists called the financial crisis “a great equalizer” which, more or less, puts (or can put) lawyers just beginning their careers on nearly the same level as lawyers with long, storied careers at firms. This is because everyone has to adapt to the changing legal landscape.
If this partner’s assertions are correct, then the whole situation is absolutely terrifying to me. I like knowing what’s coming next. When I graduated from high school, I knew the next step was college. When I graduated from college, I knew the next step was law school. Upon graduation from law school, I know I want to work at a law firm. But what that will entail or perhaps what it should entail, I have no idea. I know what the traditional trajectory can be: working for a number of years and making partner. But if the partners I talked to are correct, I cannot rely on that. Perhaps, then, it is imperative that evaluate why I chose to attend law school in order to determine what type of career I want to have. In this essay, I will discuss my motivation for deciding to become a lawyer and how my increasing knowledge of what a lawyer actually does has affected it. | | | I should be a lawyer? Okay! | |
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< | I think I decided to become a lawyer when I was about four years old. I’m not entirely sure why or how. Maybe it was partly because my mom is a lawyer. Or maybe it was because there was something so decidedly adult and almost mystifying about the idea. It also might have been because people told me that I should be a lawyer because I like to argue. Whatever the reason, from a very young age, I felt like I was “Misan, who is going to be a lawyer”. As I got older, this did not change. I do not think I ever thought seriously about any other career option. | >
> | I decided to become a lawyer when I was four. I’m not sure what my motivation was. Maybe it was partly because my mom is a lawyer. Or maybe it was because there was something so decidedly adult about the idea. It might have been because people told me that I should be a lawyer because I like to argue. Whatever the reason, from a very young age, I felt like I was “Misan, who is going to be a lawyer”. As I got older, this did not change. I do not think I ever thought seriously about any other career option. | | | At the same time, I am really focused on what I can accomplish as an individual to help make positive changes in the world at large. Throughout the course of my experiences, I have come to appreciate the power in the hands of the individual acting solely or in concert with others. I understand how one’s actions can potentially change the world in very profound ways; how every little bit a person does can be significant, particularly when combined with the actions of others. I think the discipline of law is directly relevant to all spheres of life and is therefore the perfect vehicle for effecting change for good in society. Thus, it is possible that I am motivated by the idea that a law degree will give me a more meaningful way of thinking about societal issues. After all, Holmes wrote, in “The Path of Law”, “The training of lawyers is a training in logic.” I am convinced that a law school education will provide me a more rational way of approaching complex global problems. And perhaps with this approach, I will be able to develop comprehensive and successful solutions. Keeping all of this in mind, becoming a lawyer just seemed to fit my goals in life and my skill set. | |
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< | Before law school, I knew next to nothing about what a lawyer did on a daily basis. So last summer, when I received the opportunity to work at a major New York law firm, I was ecstatic. Finally, I would get a chance to be in an environment where people were practicing law. I really enjoyed the time I spent at the law firm. I did a lot of research and writing, which I love. I genuinely liked the people I interacted with. But at the end of the summer, I realized that I still was not entirely sure what practicing lawyers did on a daily basis. I wanted to become the best lawyer I could be. But how I could do that if I actually did not know what that meant in practice? I thought back to what I saw the associates and the partners do. They worked at their desks and attended meetings. Associates received assignments, completed them, and then turned them in. There did not seem to be anything particularly incredible about it. It actually appeared pretty ordinary and mundane. I wondered how many of the attorneys I interacted with had great plans to save the world and whether they were happy with the choices they had made. | >
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Before law school, I knew next to nothing about what a lawyer did on a daily basis. So last summer, when I received the opportunity to work at a major New York law firm, I was ecstatic. I really enjoyed the time I spent at the law firm. I did a lot of research and writing, which I love. I genuinely liked the people I interacted with. But at the end of the summer, I realized that I still was not entirely sure what practicing lawyers did on a daily basis. I thought back to what I saw the associates and the partners do. They worked at their desks and attended meetings. Associates received assignments, completed them, and then turned them in. It appeared pretty ordinary and mundane. I wondered how many of the attorneys I met had great plans to save the world and whether they were happy with their choices. | | |
Conclusion | |
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< | As a second semester 1L, I am still not sure what it means to be a practicing lawyer. But maybe that is the point. Perhaps being a lawyer is not something that you just learn about by attending classes, reading cases, and taking law school exams. Possibly being a lawyer is about making it up as you go along. I am not sure how comfortable I am with that thought. I like structure. I like knowing what it means to have a particular career so I can know what I am getting myself into. I worry about becoming just another cog in the wheel of a major law firm because that is certainly not who I want to be. I do think, however, that law school has taught me to constantly question and probe the presumably accepted (and unchangeable) realities. With this, I think I am going to be just fine. | >
> | I am still not sure what it means to be a practicing lawyer. I am also still not sure what type of career I want to have or what form it should take. But maybe that is the point. Perhaps being a lawyer is not something that you just learn by attending classes, reading cases, and taking law school exams. Possibly being a lawyer is about making it up as you go along. I am not sure how comfortable I am with that thought. I like structure. I like knowing what it means to have a particular career so I know what I am getting myself into. But, I am aware that my discomfort is largely due to my fear of the unknown. Not knowing what comes next is a fact of life. That can be exciting because I get a chance to forge my own path. Law school has taught me to constantly question and probe the presumably accepted realities. With this crucial skill, I think I am going to be just fine. | | |
- Do you think the problem actually lies in being "Misan who is going to be a lawyer who is going to make it up as she goes
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