Law in Contemporary Society
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My Fear of An Unlived Life

-- By AllisonHouston - 01 Mar 2018

Sometimes I feel strange and out of place being enrolled as a law student. I’m sure my previous statement is something that on the surface resonates with many of my first year peers. But, what I am trying to convey with that sentiment is something much deeper. I don’t feel out of place in the traditional and predictable sense of viewing law school as a daunting undertaking, the classes being incredibly difficult and unique compared to a typical undergraduate liberal arts curriculum, or the general uneasiness and weariness accompanying the 1L summer job hunt. Rather, I have no intention of becoming a lawyer. Particularly in the sense that my end goal aspirations do not include working at a firm till the ripe age of retirement with a career spanning decades. That to me would represent a grave failure on my part and a disservice to myself so extreme that I would have a problem looking myself in the mirror everyday knowing I was too much of a cautious coward to pursue my true aspiration: politics.

I am probably one of the few people who can claim having a parent who was initially disappointed in their choice to attend law school. The fact I would be attending an Ivy League law school made no difference. But, I know it had less to do with my choice of graduate studies and more to do with my ultimate career aspirations. My mother deeply worries about the unpredictability of a political career and disfavors the fact that my employment prospects in that field are dependent on the support of others, rather than a stable well paying law firm job.

Since I was in preschool, I had always wanted to be a heart surgeon, but I had a drastic change in trajectory after the election of President Obama in 2008. I had already been active in student council for years prior, but I never thought to think larger, to apply my interest to something much bigger and impactful. Honestly, it’s very hard to imagine yourself in certain positions when it has never been done before by someone who looks like you. American politics are overwhelming white and male, so to see someone like you attain such a historically inaccessible position to those who don’t look like the previous 43 presidents was an amazing thing to witness as an impressionable middle-schooler.

Although politics has for the most part been viewed as corrupt, self-serving, unjust, and more often than not an enforcement of hegemonic power structures, it can also be an avenue of profound change, impact, and social progression. The political system can be greatly steered by active civic engagement and participation. Now, since many people are unsatisfied in the wake of the 2016 election, I feel that politics requires participation by those are willing to rise above the discouragement and vitriol.

But oftentimes I worry that that my cheery disposition towards the good politics can do is just a byproduct of my youth and naivety. I sometimes wonder if with age will I change in my demeanor. I fear losing optimism, I fear losing hopefulness, but I most fear succumbing to jadedness and apathy. Becoming numb and indifferent to problems faced by others is something I don’t ever want to be part of my character.


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